Hi!
Hello!
Howdy!
How do you doing?
Great? Great! Because that's I wish to everybody.
Now, some of you may noticed that I upload my drawings to my gallery, specificly the ones, after I quited/leaved DA. Now you probably thinking - "Why?"
It's funny you ask (or not), let me explain.
You see, as I just said, I leaved DA for specific resons and those reasons are - Pain, Jealous and Agner. I have a lot favorite artists here, that really inspired me for drawing, but... Whenever I upload stuff here, trying by best to make a little solid art, I did't get any attention whatsoever. Now, let's get real guys, many of us have that feeling, when you trying real hard to draw better and better, but at the end resolts, all you gettin' is a "+50 Fav" with zero commetns... letting you feel empty, like it was for nothing. Because you know, pushing the "Add To Fav" Button is a lot easier, than ACTUALLY say what you think. I know, I know, many artists had that problem, no matter had good your artwork are. Some of then can deal with that and move on, continuing doing what you always like to do... but what about those, who can be tired of that? What about those, who can sick of uploading something that nobody would care about? Feeling Angry and Jealosy at everyone who had that, while you have NOTHING...
*Sigh* Look, before you go nuts, just please hear me out. I still have that feeling, whenever I think about DA or seeing how many people get asking commishions, when I don't get any.... I do, I really Hate it, and that hate still continuing to haunting me. But(!), does this mean, that I hate everybody? The Answear is - No! And why would I? If I haven't ipmrove anything with my art/drawing stuff, why would anyone care about me (or even asked for commishion)? I'm accepted that fact many many MANY times (trust me on that) and after all I just said, brigns the next quastion - 'Why Do I even bother to make this journal, while uploading some stuff'? (ecpecially with my recolored character)
Well... The first reason is my profile have a 366 watchers, even if they don't remember me, I'm sure some of them would like to see something that I did for the whole time missing. And the second main reason - Is to express the feeling! I'm tired of holding it to myself, it may sounds silly, but it's really hurts deeply, even If have no reason to blame anybody but my self. I mean, I'm sure no one would care to read this in the first place, but even so... I'm just wanted express it from my cheast.
*sigh*
Anyhoo, have a nice day everybody, nothing special is happeing... just... Idunno, sorry for bothering anyway. and for my broken english too